It occurred to me yesterday as I was reading some similarly themed blogs that there is danger in writing this blog. I’m not particularly afraid of someone I know reading this and figuring it out and not just because I’m careful not to include too many details. I feel guilty about having the affair, but I don’t feel like I’ve said or done anything with this blog that I should be ashamed of.
No, the danger is that I’m writing about myself and sharing some pretty deep stuff. As a result, I’m interacting with quite a few women (still only have the one male reader) who either have had affairs of their own or have been betrayed by their spouses. In other words, I’m having deep conversations with vulnerable women while I myself am also vulnerable.
I’ve been cognizant of this for a few weeks now and I’ve been wrestling with it. I’m not planning on shutting this blog down because it has been beneficial to me. Surprisingly enough it’s been helpful to others as well.
I guess I’m just saying that I can see how my concern for my readers and the open way in which I write could be an avenue to having another affair. I don’t plan on changing that, but I’m letting you know that I’m being careful. I do NOT want to even start down that road with any of you. I care too much for my wife, my family, myself, and for all of you to let that happen.
Or maybe I’m just talking a load of bollocks and I’m the only one who feels that way. If so, that’s even better. What do you think: am I being paranoid or just cautious?